"I just love that spirit that makes people do things that they probably shouldn't." - Johnny Knoxville
Let me just start off by saying, you might know me but you probably don’t really KNOW me. Like, I might know some of you, but not quite. Know what I’m sayin’? Of course you do. I'll shut up. However, here I put in a real effort to lift any shrouds that I may carry around myself. So, hopefully you can get to know me a little better through some of my random blog posts and scattered words.
I jumped on this blog thing pretty heavy last year; sometime around August, with some introspective insight. Just up and out of the blue... For the most part, it really did seem to help me out with some things, and possibly even helped some others. I don’t know. Either way, I’m gonna jump right back into it this year and see where it takes us < (I have a Cat now – I haven’t totally lost my shit just yet).
Hey! It’s the year of the Roster! The Fire Rooster to be more specific. Totally irrelevant, really. Ironically, though I’ve felt far less cocky than I have in recent years to pass. Not sure why, or even if that’s a good thing. I’m guessing it is, though. If I’m paying attention to the right feelings, and the right signs, then I think it’s certainly a flux in character that will serve me well in the long run. Not to say that I’ve lost any confidence in myself, on the contrary, my confidence has almost had a solidifying nature about it since last August. I no longer question my self-worth, my talent, and my contributions to this life and world around me.
I know their value and I know my value.
Things are pretty evident now, for better or for worse. Even recent situations, in retrospect, are blatantly obvious. In regards to that, I do feel a bit sour about a few things. But I’m really savoring on that sweet side now, and looking forward to that succulent warm, gooey center. Was succulent too much for you there? Haha!! I don’t care if it was or not, honestly. That’s what it is. (Whispering) It's...ssssucculent…
Right now, I’m just feeling happy, man. Happy to be where I am and doing what I’m doing with all of the kick-ass people that surround me and take the time out of their lives to create something from nothing. I feel lucky. Beyond lucky, actually. I feel that electrifying current picking up again. I’m back to looking at what I DO HAVE and not focusing on what I DON’T HAVE. You can’t miss things you’ve never had. What I do have is my drive and my ambitions (ass loads of that), my friends and my family (beautiful, soulful people), lastly, my refined wits and a freshly upgraded bullshit meter (so don’t bullshit me).
And while we’re at it, don’t bullshit yourself. Be real and be true to your heart and your mind.
Know YOUR value and don’t let anyone or anything put you down and out. Fuck ‘em if they do.
Have a lovely moment ladies and gents, =)
- Jared C. Shumate